Theres no break or sunny days
Sometimes it all just becomes too much. All the your strong don’t let anything make you weak. All the you aren’t doing anything to get better. All the things will get better if you stay strong. All the drama. All the you have to step up even when there are others around. All the dont cry. All the your better than that. All the calm down. All the pills. All the pills that dont help. All the sadness that has no cause. All the insomnia that only leads to trouble. All of it just gets too much that it starts to invade the only time I have to not think and rest. I dont wish all of it would go away, I just wish it would all stop staring over and over. I wish I didn’t have to start on a new blank page because it was time to talk to someone new. But it seems all I do is be held back from settling down despite as much as I want to I’m forced to never unpack but rather just be ready to keep moving and changing things. It’s all a little annoying and hard to do.